Drabble: Regrets

[starsandsea]

Title: Regrets
Rating: PG-13
Pairing: Pieter/Michael
Word Count: 272
Disclaimer: I own nothing
Warning: Character Death
Author's Note: For isilweth who asked for 'Pieter/Michael, regrets'. Unbetaed, so point and I shall correct!



Pieter held Charlie close to him, taking comfort from his presence, as always. He could hear the wind howling about him, heard the roar of the sea. It was almost enough to drown the sound of his memories.

Charlie moved slightly, pressing closer to him, but for once didn't complain more than that.

Pieter breathed in deeply; he could smell thunder in the air, lacing the smell of the sea, and knew that soon the storm would reach the beach where he stood. He wondered if it would be like that other storm, the one where he had met Charlie and discovered that he could see again, had started his life anew. He stifled a sob, clutching Charlie closer. Would even Charlie be torn away from him now, like the others?

Like Michael?

Nevermore would Michael talk to him, touch him, understand him.

Because Pieter had been too slow.

Too slow, too stupid, too selfish, being away at his Clinic, sleeping - sleeping - when the attack had taken place. And now he would never be with Michael again.

His lover had been torn from his hands, had slipped through his fingers as his blood had, and he only had himself to blame. Pieter raised his head to the heavens, feeling the first spots of rain on his face.

It was hard to carry on believing in God when you had lost everything and everyone.

Oh, he had his people at the Clinic, and the JSA, but... It wasn't the same. It would never be the same again.

The storm crashed onto the beach.

The rain mingled with Pieter's tears.

Comments

[fictionalknight.livejournal.com]

aww! :( noooo! so sad. :( beautifully written, but seriously heartbreaking - poor Pieter!!

[starsandsea.livejournal.com]

Poor Pieter indeed! *huggles him*

Thank you for commenting! I'm glad you liked it.

[senmut]

Oh goddess, but that...+whimpers+

Poor Pieter.

[starsandsea.livejournal.com]

*huggles Pieter*

Thank you for commenting, Filly.

[bradygirl_12]

*sobs*

Beautifully written, Star! The sea motif is perfect.

[starsandsea.livejournal.com]

Thank you, Brady! I'm glad you liked it.

*huggles Pieter*

[arch-schatten.livejournal.com]

Augh, nooo! Michael! I am still hoping he'll make it somehow! even if it has to be after the stupid Blackest Night and being zombiefied or something.. :/ :/ DON'T DIE MICHAEL! D: D:

It was hard to carry on believing in God when you had lost everything and everyone.

I really like that line and what it implies for the characters, Pieter having always being so religious and Michael being an atheist, how it shakes Pieter's faith to lose yet another loved one. Poor Pieter :(

[starsandsea.livejournal.com]

Augh, nooo! Michael! I am still hoping he'll make it somehow! even if it has to be after the stupid Blackest Night and being zombiefied or something.. :/ :/ DON'T DIE MICHAEL! D: D:

MICHAEL ISN'T DEAD!! PIETER WILL SAVE HIM!!!!!! He has to...! *wails* Stupid canon.

I really like that line and what it implies for the characters, Pieter having always being so religious and Michael being an atheist, how it shakes Pieter's faith to lose yet another loved one. Poor Pieter :(

I felt that line was kinda shoveled in, so I'm relived it worked for you! Poor poor Pieter, having lost everything and everyone... He only has his faith left, and he's not even sure if he can continue believing in that anymore... *huggles him*

Thank you for commenting, Mina! I'm so glad you liked it! :D

[mithen.livejournal.com]

I agree with Mina, Pieter questioning his faith is especially painful here! Oh, it's so sad, and Pieter blaming himself just makes me want to sob.

[starsandsea.livejournal.com]

It is! It's like he doesn't have anything left and now he's not even sure he can carry on believing in his faith anymore... *huggles him* And, of course, being extra cruel with him being not being able to save Michael... *sniffles*

Thank you for commenting, Jen.

[taro-twist.livejournal.com]

Oh, this so sad. Noooo, Pieter, don't blame yourself, there's nothing you could have done. D: I feel so bad for him ... to lose Michael and to have to carry all that guilt around, too.

I love the image of him clinging to Charlie, his last comfort, although it's so sad.

And this line is beautiful:

The rain mingled with Pieter's tears.

*sniff* ;.;

[starsandsea.livejournal.com]

*huggles Pieter* There was nothing he could have done, but that doesn't change anything, does it?

I love the image of him clinging to Charlie, his last comfort, although it's so sad.

Charlie will be doing a lot of comforting! *pets him*

Thank you for commenting, Taro! I'm so glad you liked it! :)

[isilweth.livejournal.com]

Thank you! This is wonderful!

It was hard to carry on believing in God when you had lost everything and everyone.
Oh, HEARTBREAK. Excellent parallel to Michael, too.

I love the rocky beach and the crashing ocean and the stormy weather. How very Portsmouth and utterly Pieter. ♥♥

Also, I'm putting my fingers in my ears and 'tra-la-la-la-la'-ing. Michael is NOT dead. *ahem*

[starsandsea.livejournal.com]

Yay! I'm so glad you liked it! :D

*hugs Pieter* I quite enjoyed bringing out the parallel with Michael with Pieter questioning his faith... *hugs him again*

Also, I'm putting my fingers in my ears and 'tra-la-la-la-la'-ing. Michael is NOT dead. *ahem*

*grins* So I am! Well... outside of fic like this, that is, lol.

Thank you for commenting! :)