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starsandsea) wrote2008-02-24 08:00 pm
starsandsea) wrote2008-02-24 08:00 pm
Fic: Batman's Files and Bruce's Diary (7/?)
Title: Batman's Files and Bruce's Diary (7/?)
Rating: PG-13
Characters/Pairing: Bruce, BatClan, Pieter, Harvey, implied Bruce/Clark
Word Count: 629
Disclaimer: I own nothing
Author's Note: Previous parts, with notes, can be found here. Unbetaed, so point and I shall correct.
Sunday 24th February 2008 (Entry continued from Friday 22nd February 2008)
[Previous entry cut off because Superman and Nightwing threatened death to laptop if I didn't stop immediately]
Number of Crimes stopped: 0
Number of Murders: 0
Number of escapes from Arkham: 0
Review of night: N/A
Notes: I was shot by Two-Face 4 times, and have spent the last 2 days recovering. I will probably be out of active action for 3-4 weeks.
Notes on Team: Nightwing has returned from New York to cover for me while I heal. Robin, Batgirl and Superman are all taking a more active roll as well. Green Lantern (Alan Scott) has offered to keep an eye on Gotham also.
Bruce's Notes: Well, what a spectacular failure that was. How the hell did I miss that? I should have seen it, I should have... I was shot 4 times by Harvey. In both legs, then twice in the chest. All at nearly point blank range after I was hit over the head. Leslie had to call Pieter in to help patch me up again. At least he didn't bring his owl with him. That would have been the fantastic end to a truly marvelous day.
Dammit, everyone's fussing over me. Clark will hardly leave me alone for a second, and then it's only if there's an emergency. And now I won't be able to go on patrol for weeks. And Harvey... god. I hate to think what's this has done to him. What it's doing to him. Sometimes I wish I could just kill the part of him that's Two-Face, kill it and then he'll never have to suffer any of this again.
I am such a idiot. Why the hell didn't I see this coming? I knew that something was, everything was there, all the signs, everything, but I still didn't see it. I failed again. And now 14 people are dead because of it, another 3 are still in critical condition and no one knows if they'll make it. Civilians, their only crime being in the wrong place at the wrong time. I failed them. Just like I fail everyone, at the end. Everyone. I only bring pain and death into everyone's lives. Even Clark, who was never supposed to die, did. Was that because of my influence on him? Because of my curse?
Sometimes I think it would be best for everyone if I just disappeared. Just left one day. They could be happy then, and not have to deal with me, with all my pain and stupidity, not have to worry about me. Because I am going to get them all killed, in the end. Even Gotham. I'm going to fail her one day. I already have, when the earthquake struck. If I hadn't been out of the cave when the specialist called, I would have been able to start the evacuation procedures. If I had bothered to check the messages, not just ignored them with the thoughts that it surely wouldn't happen today. And how many of Gotham's people did I fail that day? Hundreds of thousands. More. Really, I'm a pitiful excuse for a protector of a city. Maybe it would have been better if Leslie and Pieter weren't such good doctors. If they hadn't been able to save me.
We've had to come up with an excuse for Wayne Enterprises, too. Apparently I'm on holiday on my island in the Caribbean. Clark's calling me. The drugs are making it so difficult to concentrate. Goddamn it, why the hell didn't I see this coming?
Rating: PG-13
Characters/Pairing: Bruce, BatClan, Pieter, Harvey, implied Bruce/Clark
Word Count: 629
Disclaimer: I own nothing
Author's Note: Previous parts, with notes, can be found here. Unbetaed, so point and I shall correct.
Sunday 24th February 2008 (Entry continued from Friday 22nd February 2008)
[Previous entry cut off because Superman and Nightwing threatened death to laptop if I didn't stop immediately]
Number of Crimes stopped: 0
Number of Murders: 0
Number of escapes from Arkham: 0
Review of night: N/A
Notes: I was shot by Two-Face 4 times, and have spent the last 2 days recovering. I will probably be out of active action for 3-4 weeks.
Notes on Team: Nightwing has returned from New York to cover for me while I heal. Robin, Batgirl and Superman are all taking a more active roll as well. Green Lantern (Alan Scott) has offered to keep an eye on Gotham also.
Bruce's Notes: Well, what a spectacular failure that was. How the hell did I miss that? I should have seen it, I should have... I was shot 4 times by Harvey. In both legs, then twice in the chest. All at nearly point blank range after I was hit over the head. Leslie had to call Pieter in to help patch me up again. At least he didn't bring his owl with him. That would have been the fantastic end to a truly marvelous day.
Dammit, everyone's fussing over me. Clark will hardly leave me alone for a second, and then it's only if there's an emergency. And now I won't be able to go on patrol for weeks. And Harvey... god. I hate to think what's this has done to him. What it's doing to him. Sometimes I wish I could just kill the part of him that's Two-Face, kill it and then he'll never have to suffer any of this again.
I am such a idiot. Why the hell didn't I see this coming? I knew that something was, everything was there, all the signs, everything, but I still didn't see it. I failed again. And now 14 people are dead because of it, another 3 are still in critical condition and no one knows if they'll make it. Civilians, their only crime being in the wrong place at the wrong time. I failed them. Just like I fail everyone, at the end. Everyone. I only bring pain and death into everyone's lives. Even Clark, who was never supposed to die, did. Was that because of my influence on him? Because of my curse?
Sometimes I think it would be best for everyone if I just disappeared. Just left one day. They could be happy then, and not have to deal with me, with all my pain and stupidity, not have to worry about me. Because I am going to get them all killed, in the end. Even Gotham. I'm going to fail her one day. I already have, when the earthquake struck. If I hadn't been out of the cave when the specialist called, I would have been able to start the evacuation procedures. If I had bothered to check the messages, not just ignored them with the thoughts that it surely wouldn't happen today. And how many of Gotham's people did I fail that day? Hundreds of thousands. More. Really, I'm a pitiful excuse for a protector of a city. Maybe it would have been better if Leslie and Pieter weren't such good doctors. If they hadn't been able to save me.
We've had to come up with an excuse for Wayne Enterprises, too. Apparently I'm on holiday on my island in the Caribbean. Clark's calling me. The drugs are making it so difficult to concentrate. Goddamn it, why the hell didn't I see this coming?
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Great job; but I need to sneak past you to give Bruce some Zoloft, m'kay?
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LOL. Okay. ;)
I'm glad you liked it! :D
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And here I thought something had happened to drag Bruce away from the computer and back out to face some horribly emergency. Damn. *Four* shots!? O_o Gah!
Ok, so I wanted to huggle him before... NOW I just want to smoosh him with hugs and maybe smack a little sense into him. :(
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I knowwww! The image of Bruce bleeding and trying to type on the keyboard just broke my heart! Woe!
*curls up with Saavi to wait for more*
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*huggles Bruce and Jen* I admit, that broke my heart too!
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*wants to do the same too* He needs lots of hugs! But he also needs some sense to enter that thick skull of his. lol.
I'm glad you liked it! :)
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Wonderful.
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I'm glad you liked it! :)
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He's hard on himself, but I can understand his feelings. Sometimes you feel like such a screw-up that people would be better off without you. He'll soldier on, like we all do. The thing is, we know he's worth so much and yet he doesn't think so. Without him, so many people would be hurt or worse off! Sometimes smart people are just dumb.
P.S. The comment about Charlie was cute. ;)
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*huggles him* Sometimes smart people can be very stupid indeed!
P.S. The comment about Charlie was cute. ;)
LOL, I couldn't resist that! ;)
I'm glad you liked it, Brady! :)
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LOL, yeah. *shakes head* I am relived that this is still in character for Bruce! I worry about it... :)
Thanks for commenting, Jen! :)
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(Anonymous) 2008-02-25 04:03 am (UTC)(link)I look forward to more. Though with trepidation 'cos you shot him. ;-)
Angeloz
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Thank you for commenting! :)
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I was half enjoying and half suffering to see him blame himself...
Can't wait to see more!
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There will be more very soon! :)